check into the hotel bella muerte..

2009-02-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

after all the time i've been there for u. u were no where near being here for me when i really needed someone to talk to. guess some things will never ever change. spring, summer, autumn, winter, winter, winter, winter,winter, winter, winter, winter,winter, winter, winter, winter, and an ever lasting winter.

its the dark abyss ahead. so wad? there will be light somewhere, somehow.

2008-11-01T18:10:00.003+08:00

its almost 2mths of army shits. so far so good though. cept that i cant do well for my ippt. so my ciggs breaks are cut here n there. n its not helping that i keep thinking bout some stuffs. sighs.

i know i said to be optimistic n all. think i've been doing that for quite a while alrdy. but its tough. when all odds are against u. theres always a temptation of jus giving up. but i cant. cos i still..

well in case you failed to notice,
in case you failed to see..

2008-08-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

still a little bit of your song in my ear..
still a little bit of your words i long to hear..
u step a little closer..
to me..
~~so close~~ that i cant see what's going on..

2008-07-20T01:10:00.002+08:00

toy theory

picture yourself as a kid who jus received a new toy. u're happy and excited. u play with it every now and then. so very amazed by this new addition. but after awhile, say days/weeks/months, u get bored of it alrdy. den u chuck it aside.

maybe a few months later, u discovered it buried deep inside your toy box. ur interest in this toy grows again. u play with it often again. but jus like before, u get bored of it after a while and u dump it one corner.

now. picture urself as urself. substitute the toy with other objects (maybe a cellphone, some game or some hobby; or maybe even somebody). see the similarities now?

this is only human. most of the times we're the kid, but in unfortunate circumstances, one might just be that fateful little toy. one moment you're enjoying the attention, having loads of fun with the kid. but the next, u're just a forgotten piece of plastic buried deep inside the deep dark toy box.

realisation.

2008-07-16T21:49:00.002+08:00

been working at isetan's ck for a while now. on weekdays its dead boring. on weekends its damn bloody busy. its like a hot and cold treatment (but aint i supposed to be used to this kinda shit?). i'm a little bored of this job. stand for the whole day and all. hopefully ford can confirm with his bro.

sam's right. i was damn emo for the past few days. shit. dunno wads wrong. oh well.

2008-07-02T12:03:00.002+08:00

fuck. im a fucking pes a. zz. after all the shit they put me through. all the trips to nuh and back. basket. and the ep scan. waste my time. when i did the ep scan i thought i was dying soon. they rose my heartbeat to damn bloody high. i could hear it pounding. and the thoughts that flashes my mind in that instant.

anw im starting work today. after an interview yesterday. damn they really lack pple huh.

Beep Beep oh look now there goes my phone
And once again im just hoping its a text from you..mm..
It aint right read ur messages twice thrice
Four times a night its true
Everyday I patiently wait
Feeling like a fool but I do, anyway
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real
Cuz I know that I wasn't waiting in vain..

And maybe its true
Im caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance your stuck on me too
So maybe im wrong
Its all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said

Im always connected online
Looked on my Facebook all the time
Hoping you've Checked my profile
Just can't help wondering why,
You play it cool but,
I'm hopelessly falling for you,
Every night on the phone I'm..
In love with you, and I know you like it girl
All joking aside,
Let's see you and I
Come out and say what we're trying to hide..

And maybe its true
Im caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance your stuck on me too
So maybe im wrong
Its all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said

Like I really want you,
I think I need you,
Baby I miss you,
I'm thinking of you

And maybe its true (OH)
Im caught up on you (maybe, yeah)
Maybe there's a chance your stuck on me too (Stuck on me too)
So maybe im wrong (Hey baby, yeah..)
Its all in my head.. (OH NO)
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said (both haven't said)

And Maybe Its True Im Caught Up On You
Maybe Theres A Chance You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im Wrong, And Its All In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid Of Words We Both Hadnt Said

Maybe it's true..(Baby I Miss You)
I'm caught up on you (Look I Want You)
Maybe I am wrong
Baby I miss you...

2008-06-20T19:55:00.001+08:00

it was scary at 1st..

but it was great! ;)

2008-06-02T04:39:00.000+08:00

haven't been able to sleep well. mind's always filled up with stuffs. even when my body's really shagged i jus cant fall asleep. stressed n depressed. sucks.

positivity!

2008-05-26T18:21:00.001+08:00

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

~~As quietly co-waltzing by,~~
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

2008-05-21T00:32:00.003+08:00

im in an emo mood recently (read thank you jovial and benson). this is bad. im so addicted to love songs @ class 95. 9pm - 1am of emo songs. hahaha. anw 91.3 is kinda nice too. lots of 90s hits to reminisce the good ol' times.

anw i didnt die because of the scan. aww. my wound's healing but its kinda swollen right now. shit.

dunno if i shld go for the grad ceremony. i hate the bloody robe.

ntu rejected me. jz got rejected too. thought he'll be ok but turns out that his gpa wasnt much better than mine.

i need to get a job soon. dunno wad to work as. sighs. or maybe some rich tai tais wan a god son? hahaha.

2008-05-03T04:47:00.002+08:00

i feel like im sinking deeper and the fight against the current is getting much tougher. wad should i do? i feel im like so used yet again. sighs.

been feeling the increase in my heartbeat for the past week. my throat's damn dry too. feels like vomiting everytime. dunno wads wrong. maybe its a sign.

2008-04-26T00:48:00.000+08:00

medical's dragging on and on. no idea when it'll end. i hope it'll be over soon so i can enlist earlier or at least get a job. i've been slacking everyday, its killing me.

i dunno whether i should make a move forward ornot. but i guess i should probably let nature take its course. see how it goes la. troubled.

sometimes i feel that i dun really understand some of my closest friends. its amazing how i feel like i dun even know them sometimes. i dunno how to talk sense into him. sighs.

life's getting sucky. i know i ought to be optimistic but its hard. nonetheless i'll try my best.

really broke now. i need money. but with all the hoo ha going on at yean's side, i really dunno if i could get my pay. sighs. hope everything will be ok. afterall it was me who got that thing started. fucked.

2008-04-12T03:17:00.002+08:00

we watched street kings n horton! happy happy happy day! =D

2008-03-17T06:00:00.003+08:00

thinking.. but i think i shld stop thinking. cos i think my thoughts are unrealistic.

i've been quite happy for the past few days, and sad too. well..

IT show's over. big thank you to pple like rae, siqi, terence and jimmy who helped me alot. a big fuck u to starhub provisioning for finding faults with my sales when there are no mistakes at all.

anw rio's discharged alrdy. think aris shld be out soon. im hoping somebody will be back as an installer to help yean. i dun mind helping him but i think i need to find a regular office hour job so i can have my social life back. dilemma. and i feel bad asking my dad for the car all the time cos of this job.

maybe luck will be on my side again and i'll have my own car and this worry will no longer be a worry? haha.

been watching the seventh day recently. starring both kevin cheng n niki chow again. really nice n touching show. go watch it too! emo show. emo emo emo...

anw to the pple arnd me who are feeling down.. CHEER UP! life goes on no matter wad. why not live each day with a smile? ;)

2008-01-06T18:50:00.000+08:00

xmas was fantastic. thank you for blessing me and the wonderful gift.

new year was terrible. to be honest, the days were all terrible. rushing for projects. having a meal a day. staying up late or rather early almost everyday. fyp was a living hell hole. but thankfully its over. 1 more report and im done. its jus tests and exams and itll be matter of time before i join the gang.

im gonna take a break, den really study hard. afterall its the last chance to improve my gpa.

2007-11-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

i wonder how things will turn out, but im well prepared for the worst.

im in a pathetic situation right now, penniless, single, being played around, on the verge of being charged. sighs. i wasnt thinking of doing it initially, but wads done been done.

screwed.

2007-09-26T00:01:00.000+08:00

exam results are quite good actually. As and Bs. cept for SEMP. bloody D which screwed everything up. think everyone did poorly for his module. even jz got a C. bloody loh kwong khuin. and he's our fyp grp supervisor. fucked. saw his namecard that day. bachelor in engineering hons from mit. WTF!? cant believe it man. when he's like the most screwed up lecturer. zz. the world is full of surprises.

friday was great. drove to changi for nasi lemak. 4 cars! quite fun la. 4 cars on the highway. w00t. and 4 cars parking side by side. totally cool. after that we went ecp for abit of fun. but ben hit the kerb on his rented sonata 2.4. he was fuckin shaking when he was holding the cigg. my god.

so sat afternoon was spent at sin ming. spray paint uncle saw the damage and told us to get the steering realigned. quite cheap la. $15. den after that went to get the rims polished and have the battle scars removed. this is expensive. $20 + $60. after that went back to uncle to spray paint the minor scratch. uncle damn nice la. ask him how much he said jus give him any amount. ben gave him 10. killed the night at bt timah shooting cs.

sunday played pool with kenny. den had coffee together with ben n andrew. den ben wanted to get a beer. so off we went to cavern. aft that came back n waited for kenny to call me to pass me his bravo. he was late abit. hope it was alright. aft that met tan n weijie. had my favourite beancurd.

monday was screwed. i shld really start avoiding bt timah to go to sch. bloody jam made it totally tough. gear 2 was the max. and clutch control is tiring. manual is fun but not in crowded traffic. bloody. hang out abit in sch den drove to alex hosp to find mom who's visiting grandpa. had lunch with her n went over to pjc to meet benson. went KAP but realised we dun have cashcards. bloody. tried to reverse up the slope but the menopausal auntie behind didnt wan to give me space. argh. pissing shit. shall elaborate next time.

2007-09-05T03:32:00.000+08:00

exam's are screwed, i think. but i hope not.

comex was ok. steph worked with me. was damn busy on sun though. and we stopped sales damn early. nice.

jus came back in that car. went out with kenny n jov today. were damn bored and didnt know wad to do. so we ended up at turf city, to view cars and maybe test drive a few. we ended up at eazi car lease. kenny wanna rent one in 2wks time. so we were enquiring abt it. den suddenly we jus asked if there's one available now. there was! fiat grande punto. and its only 60/day. so we crazily agreed and took it. heh. nice ride. except for the low low power. well at least theres semi-auto to play with. 2wks time it'll be fiat bravo. sweet. and its not even there yet. brand brand new car. less than a week old i guess. the one who took today is 1mth old. cant wait.

2007-08-17T02:04:00.000+08:00

mugging is tiring. no shit. after spending a day at home buried in the books im much more tired than spending hours kicking ball. brain's dying man. dmdw is really killing me. fuck kenny seah. offer redundant tips, go thru lecture, tutorials and practs. fuck u. which stupid ass dunno that? i have a feeling that he'll screw us up with his strict marking. correct ans but no formula = minus marks. said wad during his masters he had to do dat. fuck u la. we're after a fucking diploma, not masters.

pissing shit. nothing much is getting into my brains despite studying like mad. screwed. gimme my break. hurry.

2007-08-09T01:38:00.000+08:00

1k's fast. vincitore case $120! z shaft $275. last mth overspending $200. foods n nicoles too. busted.

bimmer 335i $265,800
volvo s60 t5 $159,000
temp car mr2 $30,000

total $454,800.

left: 150k approx.

10k for pool/dj equipments.
remainder to be kept for upkeep n misc.

c'mon!

2007-07-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

laptop's down. no shit. replaced the harddisk and it was up for a few days. den came the blue screen of death. next thing i know was that i couldnt even boot up. not even to bios. nothing on screen. no leds on harddisk. fuckin bullshit. how the hell am i gonna work on my projects on pentium3? screwed.

im gonna get a vincitore case for my babies. gonna look for a 2nd hand 314 or z shaft. will wait till mon. if not im ordering a new z^2 shaft from q shop.

2007-07-25T08:42:00.000+08:00

move out of this house. dun feel the love at all. no understanding, or attempts of understanding. no communication.

make me rich. out of here i go. and breathe again.

counting..

2007-07-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

com's down. pissing shit. i even replaced the harddisk. it works but everything's slow. slower than the old pentium 3. screwed shit. the worst thing is that i spent hours every night trying to debug n get windows installed. i did. but windows' screwed up. how?

give me the moolah pls. i wanna get my bimmer 335i, volvo s60, turnies, pool table/cues, new lappy.

2007-07-14T02:56:00.000+08:00

sch sucks, i know. tests. did well for charting for financial markets and supply chain. didnt do well for data mining. but den again, who am i to complain when i didnt really pay attention in class n everything. projects are really killing me. classmates too. some of em are getting on my nerves.

went mos last night to celebrate steph's bday. but i had to leave early cos of this morning's presentation.

jus came back frm benson's. got the car scratched. fuck. guess i was too tired and my judgement sucked.

dear god, pls let me tio toto. 650k is more than enough. i jus need 260k for my 335i cab and 160k for my dad's volvo s60. thank u so much.

2007-06-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

been out alot for the past 2wks. fucking broke. fucked.

dj lesson's finished. boring.

supposed to be studying. tests on wed, thur & fri. shit.

2007-06-12T22:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday went town w/ ben n jov. jalan jalan, gss wad. but im broke. so didnt get anything much. later on we went pf. so sad la. the girl wasnt working. sighs. hahaha!

a recent convo w/ elaine sparked some thoughts. i've been such a failure at relationships. maybe because i tried too hard in the past. well maybe now im too tired to try, or maybe to scared to try.

its getting harder and harder to communicate with my mother. yes shes the closer parent. but now, i dunno. sometimes when i ask her or talk to her, her replies would be in screams. i didnt even do anything la! this house is beginning to become not like a home. i used to that if i struck toto, i'll give her half. but now, i'd rather get a place of my own outside and avoid her as much as i can. sighs.

one thing i shld nv do again is to think of stuffs jus before i sleep. i always end up suffering from insomnia. clear my mind, fuck the world, sleep, no thinking.

2007-06-05T22:33:00.001+08:00

lesson learnt: never ever drive to suntec area when theres a pc show around. 1st, u get caught in the heavy flow of traffic. 2nd, u struggle to find a car park. 3rd, and u go there in 2 cars its so much worse. in the end ben n me parked at shaw towers. after we walked down. it was full. imagine if we went there 5mins later?

the new pf girl is hot, hot as in HOT. i saw her both on fri n sat. wanted to go there on sun too. but i was with my mother n bro. darn.

discipline comm are running arnd to do spot checks. i am the no 1 on their wanted list. honestly, i dun understand the big fuss over this long hair bull shit. so wad if my hair is long, aint gonna affect my studies. so wad if i smoke, aint gonna affect my studies. so wad if i wear slippers, aint gonna affect my studies. dis is a vicious cycle started by some dickheads frm the past. and still no dickheads in the present want to remove dis stupid ruling. fuck u all assholes. im gonna get my COM and get the fuck out of dis crappy shithole.

i think sometimes we're all too caught up in life. there are times when u need to jus break away from everything, pour urself a drink, put jazz on ur audio, light a cigg and just enjoy..

2007-05-28T09:12:00.000+08:00

dear god, u didnt gift me a silver spoon. but thats ok. at least u could've gifted me a supporting family. an understanding mother. why do i have to be woken up by mother screaming at me incessantly all the time? parents, stop having unrealistic expectations from ur child. jus because u screwed up and didnt have the ability to do well. u suffered because of u, and now we have to suffer too. and i thought u were the parent that im close to, someone i could really talk to. but no, i'm all alone.

2007-05-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

chalet was good. surprisingly. set off at 12am to cycle arnd. ended up at parkway 3+hrs later? think so. jz was leading while i was navigating jus behind. den we raced intermittently, not all the way cos the guys werent keeping up. ok cos dota couldnt keep up. lets see. we stopped at tampines central, bedok central, siglap den parkway. and parkway was dead empty. damn shit.

jz led a shortcut to chaichee for prata. had to go past a malay cemetary. so we ended up pushing the bikes up cos dota couldnt cycle uphill. after awhile we were at chaichee. den fab and jada joined us. and we rushed back at 5+ so as to avoid the morning traffic.

oh and jz ran over a kitten. it was racing w/ him as i was following behind. den it cut into jz's lane and jz ran over it. it flipped den ran and jumped right into safra tampines. scary.

2nd day was ok. slacking arnd and bbq. while stupid clifford left. kinda expected that. oh well.

dj was ok. mixing songs w/ vocals is fun. and challenging. very.

cant believe i was right w/ the milan - liverpool affair. but i didnt place my bet. didnt get pissed or anything.

thursday and i struck toto. $20 is better than nothing. but well, its nothing compared to the group 1 prize of 6.5m w/ only 1 winner. nvm, my turn soon.

fri the usual stuff. pooled w/ kenny. but benson came over. den we went to pick jov. went arab st for shisha. my stupid suggestion. we went to this place called samar. nice place. good food. but shisha sucks. i dunno bout shisha. i've nv done it b4. but i dun like it. marlene is so much better. aft dat we went orchard building for starbucks.

sat we went kbox. much to jovial's delight. benson called at 4pm. and woke me up. he came over to pick me. den we went andrew's. when his father came back. we left for marina square. bimmer day! 320 n 525. lmao. wanted to watch movie. but seats n timing were crappy. so we had dinner instead. hung arnd for a while and kenny n jov met us. kbox-ed till 345am? throat hurts. drove ben's 525 to ray's. nice ride that im not really used to. met ray and we had supper? or is it considered early breakfast? no idea

sch's starting tmr. totally screwed. didnt touch my e-learning shits at all. wanted to do it today. but it was all closed. fucked.

2007-05-19T10:12:00.000+08:00

twice now, i've seen a hot chick playing pool at irc timah. 1st was a sa girl. last night was another girl, cept there was so much more eye contact. its like a motivation. "will i see them next week?"

dun get me wrong, im not dying to have a girl. but hell, i love hot chicks. or rather looking at them. my girl criteria: decent looking, good personality, intelligent. added bonus: loves pool and football. if i could find one it'll be perfect. but im too lazy.

yesterday's pool was not bad. i played above my usual standard. and kenny played below his. but i screwed up when he was leading 2-1 in race 3. everything was going according to plan. den i potted the 9, only that the cue ball scratched too. damn. should've been a hill hill and a really close fight.

after that we went vivo (2nd time there for the day) and we caught 28 weeks later. not bad la. cept the story is kinda like no story. hahaha. if u watched dawn of the dead, u'll get me. aft movie, sent steph home and the 3 of us had our usual coffee at jov's place.

screwed shit. i've got jamming NOW and i better be running alrdy.

2007-05-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

And i'd give up forever to touch you
Cause i know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be
And i don't want to go home right now

And all i can taste is this moment
And all i can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

school is boring. chalet with my classmates' next mon. wonder how it'll turn out. leaning to screwey.

its tgif! and we gotta brainstorm and strategise on the night's activities again. as usual. sat's gonna be jamming. need to brush up on the turntables. letting go's a bit screwed. pitching's fine though. diff beats kicks up the thrills, and difficulty. sun shld be kara with the dudes, when ray ray and andrew's comes out.

jov shocked me when he said he's still thinking of his her. i thought i was the only steadfast guy around. parry broke up alrdy. two person feeling lonely getting together = two person in the end and not as a couple. he said that, agreed. love is a simple complicated thing. nuff said.

im so fuckin broke. i need moolah, like a big bag of it. haha. need to get a job soon. need to practice more on pool. sighs.

2007-05-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

its mother's day. and i feel so damn useless. dad paid for dinner. its not wife's day. i shld've been the one paying for dinner. but im so damn fucking broke. im left with $10 to survive for the month. holy shit.

i shld stop skipping lessons. start working real hard. well maybe not real hard. but jus hard. earn some big bucks. buy my 335i. provide for my mother. give her a good life. new yr resolution eh. kinda late. but who gives a shit.

2007-05-01T04:49:00.000+08:00

i still don't have the reason
and you don't have the time
and it really makes me wonder
if i ever gave a fuck about you

give me something to believe in
cause i don't believe in you anymore
anymore
i wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(yeah)
so this is goodbye

school sucks, i know. reached home not too long ago. went vivo to meet andrew n steph n some of their pj friends. as expected the usual ns topic which i was clueless abt. ended up at starbucks cos daddy needed his caffeine. feeling broke. so had a triple grande iced latte instead of a quart. but still, that hit the spot.

after much discussion, we went poolfusion while the pj dudes went back. played below average. but luck was above average. 1st ray had a bet with jov to a game of foosball. ray scores one and he wins. sadly, he lost and had to down 2 drinks. but somehow became 1. den kenny challenged ray to a game of pool, 8 ball. giving him a handicap, that ray gets cue ball for every turn. he lost. downed 2. den i challenged ray. same condition. he lost too, but it was hill-hill dis time. down 3! hahaha. that was fun. oh that reminds me. i forgot to pass kenny the cash. damn.

2007-04-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

fri - spgg pool trial was screwed. cant contain my nervousness. pot success rate very very poor. but i think repositioning still ok, including draw n follow shots. sighs. wonder if i'll even get into the team, get proper guidance and become a better player. anw, met kenny for pool at night. i played well. if only i did that earlier. fucked. aft pool went over to ray's. botak sia! had coffee and headed to amk to meet andrew & steph. another botak! hahaha. sat at s-11 for quite a bit. den decided to head to west coast to bowl. but it was closing alrdy. screwed. so we went west coast park to chill instead.

sat - had jamming in the afternoon. aircon was out. screwed. thankfully jz lent us his club's fan. or else i would've been baked ribs. ray came over to meet me. den we went heeren to meet kenny, andrew n steph. had our usual, wad to do and where to go discussions. hahaha. ended up at coffee club paragon. food's ok. drink's ok. pastry's fine. not bad la. $19 bucks. we went marina to bowl aft much discussion. as usual i cant bowl. not surprising. lanes were crappy, compared to west coast, which was even cheaper.

sun - slept till late. pooled with my cousin for abit. had nasi pattaya at al azhar. good food. den went to pick mom up, den dad. in the end we didnt have dinner. back home n lazed arnd. was sleeping until now. lmao.

2007-04-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

my father's friend (also the owner of the coffeeshop downstairs) have been asking me relationship questions. he did it when i went to the airport to drive em back and also today when i saw him downstairs. weird shit. i dun really know him ands he bugging me with these questions. asking me to go get a girl n fool around etc.

im too lazy to do dat. takes up time, energy and money. lazy la. i rather leave it to fate. haha. but i rather strike a windfall and get my car 1st before anything else. plans:

group 1:
335i e93.
balance 50/50 w/ mom.
psycho them to move to a bigger hdb where theres space for a pool table.
get pool table + equipment + upgrades.
get dj-ing equipments.

group 2:
daihatsu copen/2nd hand rx-7
balance 50/50 w/ mom.
cram a pool table somewhere + equipment + upgrades.

sometimes its frustrating talking to my mother. she might ask questions over n over again. and i get pissed easily when i have to repeat stuffs over n over again. but then again, she can be a very nice person to talk to. another thing about her is her assumption problem. its a problem because her assumptions are all very negative n pessimistic. i get pissed very very easily if she assumes i did some shit which i did not. i will scream at her if i cant control myself, no shit. but of course, i love her.

i've been thinking about my future job. sales, maybe. it related job, its my interest but i cant sit still and face the computer all day. maybe join the police? 2.9k starting pay sounds ok, after i get the james cook fast track shit.

i think im alot like my father, though we dun talk alot. obstinate, impatient, lazy, dun enjoy partying. smokes. and if i join the force, same job too.

funny. i need to be more hardworking. i need to get my gpa back to 3+. i want my cert of merit. i want to enter the university. i want to earn big bucks. i want to get my beautiful convertible. i want to live a good life. fuck u derrick, time to fucking wake up.

2007-04-21T16:27:00.000+08:00

been driving for almost 2wks. pros: convenience, no squeezing in trains. cons: gotta find parking lot, traffic could be a killer, fuel. fuel's expensive. spent 100 odd on it. but ya. driving's much better than be sardined in trains.

attachment has ended. kinda glad. i was bored most of the time. den again, sch's boring too. oh well. dr kelly gave me an A. which is really really surprising. scary shit. hope sch would be more fun else i'll be totally bored.

ray n andrew are both doing national duties now. kenny's going in in june. life's gonna get more boring. =\

2007-04-09T12:20:00.000+08:00

good friday, had bbq at andrew's. wanted to prawn but its too crowded. watched shooter as well. not bad.

sat rotted at home, chauffeured my mother around.

sun went andrew's again. sports day. andrew, ray and me. jov couldnt wake up. kenny came after work. den benson too. drove andrew's sti to longhouse. woohoo. monster acceleration. and im totally rusty. haven touched manual ever since i passed. jov came over to longhouse. den we went one fullerton. drove benson's 525 there. nice smooth ride.

my dad's going overseas tmr. car's all mine. dunno frm tmr or the day after. hmm.

hopes

2007-04-01T03:10:00.000+08:00

i shld really stop thinking abt some stuffs. feels like some fucking stupid idiot.

i shld get my ass down and concentrate on doing the crappy websites. i've been doing nothing much for my attachment except forum browsing and web surfing.

cant wait for attachment to finish. it's killing me. den again, im not looking forward to sch. fuck.

i think i need to practice more on more pool and get my english and strength control correct.

im quite certain i saw sherry (my pri sch crush) jus now when i went pooling with my cousin.

i hope my dad's not shitting me bout his china trip so i could have the car all to myself.

evil.

2007-03-23T11:32:00.000+08:00

i'm glad jov and i are ok. yeah as always. one incident. two different views & opinions.

pooled with pat yesterday. den had drinks with ray. pat asked me if i had a target ornot, and how's me and sam. hahaha. target? i dunno. dunno if i'm ready to commit, if i'm ready to give someone alot of attention, care and concern. sam's so history. we dun talk much, nothing to talk abt too.

well, we'll see how it goes. not looking forward to a relationship. but it comes, it comes. if it doesnt, im more than ok. right now, these are my priorities:

1. concentrate on studies when sch reopens (i need to keep my gpa above 3 for my c.o.m.)
2. practice and improve on my pool.
3. practice and improve on turntables. (more frequent dj sessions pls!)
4. strike toto so i can buy the following stuffs:

i. daihatsu copen (with a view of slk when i hit 20+)
ii. z² shaft for mcdermott
iii. 2 turnies + 1 mixer + serato.

2007-03-22T16:29:00.000+08:00

jus bought kenny's cues. gonna sell mine to fabian. smooth. im so damn bored now. but. im smoking a cigar while typing this in the office. yes, office where everyone is around. shiok la sia.

2007-03-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

friday was ok. we had coffee at kenny's. iced latte w/ 4 shots, dope. den we went marina to prawn. caught lots of prawns dis time. sweet. den after dat we went ecp to bbq 'em. stayed till almost 5 i think. i was dead tired. thankfully when i drove back it was smooth sailing. imagine being awake for 21 hrs and driving. dangerous shit. but anw, lets prawn again. but not till so late. haha.

sometimes i dun understand pple. when im doing an extra service for them, they expect me to go the extra mile. when im going to pick u up, i gotta call u when i reach when i alrdy told u to go downstairs in abt 10mins? and when i call u 3 times u dun pick up. or even return my call? and when i reach there, told u to leave, i still gotta wait for u. when i tell u abt my unhappiness, i still gotta take u shit? im sorry but i dun owe u a living. i dun even get paid from u. when i pick u up and send u back, i pay the petrol. u dun offer to pay or anything and yet u still ask for more. i dun mind being nice to others, i like being nice to pple. but at least treat me with some decency. im simple. if u give me shit, i'll give u shit + interest.

2007-03-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

this IT show sucks. 1st day, thurs, was alrdy so fucking crowded. i didnt even have time to go walk around. stupid shit.

friday was even worse. but at least some of my friends came. boon n shaun walked past. tiffany called and said she'll come over but she didnt. den ray came. tan came too, she bought a zen v plus. luckily they brought in stocks in the morning. haha. den jovial came, and den kenny.

after work, we went for dinner at nydc. thanks jovial for the treat, although i have no fucking idea why u're feeling so rich. we'll have a nice chat once we're both not as busy. steph came over. den we went over to boat quay. met andrew. we went to waiting bar while andrew hung out with his colleagues for abit. den he came over and we had drinks and craps. cabbed home after that. road block yet again. as always.

oh and friday is like a so fucking hot day. its hot everywhere. stupid shit.

sat's crowd is overwhelming. oh and i bought this when i was going to work. caught my eye yesterday. damn cute la.

im given more responsibilities at this show. but its still the same amount of money. oh well. at least its fun talking to pple. better than sitting in the office.

2007-03-07T11:45:00.000+08:00

last day in the office for the week. IT show! i hate sitting in the office. kills my butt. facing the com from 10-6 is so not cool. boring.

im watching 1 litre of tears now. not bad. my 2nd jdrama i think. but i still hk dramas more. haha. anw its a nice show. touching n sad. cry babies shld stay away or there will be 1 litre of tears. lmao. i like the song!

2007-03-03T03:27:00.000+08:00

work sucks, i know. luckily i'll be working at the IT show coming thurs to sun. visit me! creative booth, headphones. im so glad that i can get away from sitting on my ass in the office. boring shit.

anw, came back after work and thankfully my dad didnt go out. so i took the car and went to pick cheesing up. haha. it was nice catching up. sorry man i didnt plan anything. my brain's dead. hahaha. anw we had dinner and coffee. the noodles are damn ex, i shld eat more in jb. haha. and lots of talking("ask u something."). but i felt bad that i didnt send u back. next time i'll do dat ok?

dropped chee at somerset (sorry sorry i didnt know u havent close the door!), and went to pick benson up. den went international plaza to pick jovial up. jov ended up there cos he didnt know where ray's broth was. den went to pick ray. and headed for amk. fucking jam. think we took almost an hour to reach andrew's. den benson had a long long chat with some girl on the phone.

kept telling us 5min 5min. i think he took more than an hr. maybe even 2? but anw, den we went thomson for prata. i cant remember the name of the stall but the crispy prata's not bad. send the guys back with my eyes feeling very dry. shld've worn glasses instead of contacts.

anw, well done to those who did well for As.

and a big thank you to liow chee sing. haha. we shall do dat again.

2007-02-28T12:07:00.000+08:00

work is boring. imma dying. good luck to my homies who will be taking back their results on friday.

its like a cigarette in the mouth,
or a handshake at the doorway.
i look at u,
and smile because..
i'm fine.

2007-02-21T11:26:00.000+08:00

cny started with the eve of eve. friday. went for movies with the guys at vivo. caught protégé. not a bad movie. nice storyline. the only thing was that it was in mandarin. we shld have canto shows in singapore la. all this dubbing crap is irritating. anw, after that we left as andrew's working in the morning. since the both of us drove. we were having a lil fun on the road. revving, high-beaming, etc etc. it was cool except that i drove a rio and he drove a sunny. wrong car la. 10yrs down, we'll get a decent car and do it again. sweet.

eve was nothing special. woke up and went for lunch and headed to jb. nothing much. usual stuff. had dinner and went back home.

sun headed to jb again. early in the morning. had lunch and my parents and bro left for genting. didnt wanna go. genting is boring, nothing to shop, nothing to do. so i stayed at grandma's for a while more. den my uncle asked if i wanna test drive my aunt's car. took it and went for a spin. perodua myvi. not bad. cheap cheap car. den after we came back, my other uncle said to go out together. and i drove again. this time its a kelisa. even smaller. drove all the way to kota tinggi iirc. went to a temple, fooled arnd with some firecrackers, sat a while and i drove to the customs and left for home. reached gombak with the rain pouring. boring shit. ran home, was thinking of going to my maternal's grandma's for dinner. but the rain told me to stay put. jus slacked arnd until cousin came to stayover. nth much, usual stuff of games, supper and movies.

monday went to pool with my cousin and den headed to maternal grandma's. stayed for a while. den left for home. packed stuffs and headed to benson's. the alcohol was scary. i got wasted easily. dunno wads wrong. maybe its because i mixed the drinks. i was the 1st to lie on benson's bed. den after dat andrew and benson came in. andrew was like totally stoned when i talked to him. lmao. den they all both slept and the rest came in and xbox-ed. i couldnt sleep, mind was filled with stuffs and the light was irritating. so went over to benson's brother's rm and slept there with jovial. sounds wrong! hahaha. he slept on the top deck while i took the lower one la.

tuesday woke up and had brunch. cabbed back, dropped kenny and i stopped at grandma's again. nothing to do there again. stoned and chatted with my grandparents for a while. after that left home and i took the car out. went for pool and dinner with jovial. ray was grumpy and didnt wanna join us. its ok.

and now im back at work. im so bored la. 2nd march. lets go!

2007-02-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

i jus started my attachment. its ok la. jus that im doing a little of everything. makes me feel like im neither here nor there.

well i am neither here nor there.

cny is coming. sweet. a little paycheck for the bankrupt me. im so fucking broke. trying to keep spendings to the minimum. seems like not helping much either. fuck.

its valentine's. but it doesnt concerns me. im a bachelor. heh. but somehow, no matter how singlehood rocks, u'll still feel empty once in a little while. i think its because i watched under a canopy of love. affected me. wouldn't it be nice if u had someone there for u?

doesnt matter la. i dun need a girlfriend. i need a wife.

coe dropped. but so? no money to get a fucking car - this is the wife i'm talking about.. i've been buying toto every week. yeah regularly. dear god, buddha for my case, please let me strike toto. i dun ask for much. enough for me to get my 56k copen plus a little extra to give to my mother and a little to keep and i'll be over the moon.

2007-02-04T03:16:00.000+08:00

a phone call i didnt expect. a person i didnt expect to see. oh well.

happy birthday benson, nonetheless. we'll go for drinks jus before cny if we can la.

yesterday we went fishing for prawns. a patient game for an impatient me. sweet. there was jov, ray and kenny. after that we went geylang for supper. scammed. no good food la. thanks ah ray. 1st night out with family car, not bad.

2 more papers and im done. im so tired of studying, so tired of sitting in the room writing on the answer scripts.

im watching dis drama under the canopy of love (天幕下的恋人). i finished 18 eps in 4 days. fast game, and in this exam period too. lmao. its a nice show though. its gonna screen soon on cable. but i only have 2 more eps and im done. oh ya. and im watching it in canto. cool shit. my 1st full canto drama. i cant understand some parts of their convo though. learn..

2007-01-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

porridge @ chinatown. east coast. airport. and back. picnic is fun. except for ray who was wasted, yet again. last week at sentosa was good.

jovial's emo-ness is affecting me.

fuck school. screw exam shits.

2007-01-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

i like benson's bed. hahaha. sounds so wrong.

nye was ok. except missing the fireworks when we were the 1st of the grp to be there to get the seats. damn.

and that day we went driving on benson's replacement car. it was fun. sorry guys i drove kinda poorly and dangerously. anxiety gotten the better of me. we shld have drove picnic, could have more pple, more fun. sighs.

i love dj-ing. fun shit. im seriously contemplating getting a set of turns to put in my room. thats gonna cost like wad? 5k? turns $900 x 2. $1800. mixer $500? serato $3000? yeah almost 5k man. screwed.

2006-12-27T02:27:00.000+08:00

key events:

-michelle's birthday.
-mos with parry, wenxian, zhou. (confirmed that im not clubbing material. gimme my booze and a place to chill instead!)
-driving test. (PASSED!)
-kl trip.
-xmas eve at benson's with jov, ray, andrew and steph.
-boxing day out with jov and ray.

2006-12-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

there goes my beautiful long hair. fuck. great thanks to ms wong lih lih, deputy director of sch of biz, aka "i am not good enough to be a director cos im a fucking bitch". anw i went to see mr song nay hay, director of sch of media and infocomm tech today. he was a real asshole at 1st. "where's ur lanyard? fine $5. ur hair still very long. fine $50." den he said to talk man to man. i like that. cool guy. so i decided to be cool bout wad he said. den he said im recommended to be given a certificate of merit. even cooler shit. so fuck it la. wadeva he wans me to do, i'll do it. including a fucking stupid apology letter to the bitch, not like i feel that i was totally wrong. but well.

driving test's in 2weeks. sweet. i hope i pass, along with jovial. his is on the same day as me. can go for a spin at night. nice.

dj course's gonna start. i hope it'll be a piece of cake. hmm. maybe next time u can chk me out at some club and be controlled by my music.

evil!

2006-11-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

friday we had jovial, kenny, benson, andrew, raymond and edwin. had dinner at vilage. the marche place at heeren. den we were thinking of a place to go. in the end, they came over to gombak while i got my xbox stuffs. and we went andrew's to xbox the night away. crazy shit.

so i ended up sleeping 16hrs on saturday night. 4pm - 12am. 1am - 9am. nice.

sunday we went motorshow. peugeot wasnt there. screwed shit. 207cc. argh. but the lexus sc430 was jaw dropping. of course along with the jaw dropping price and girls. lmao. oh and the russ swift stunt performance was absolutely crazy. hes damn fucking precise la. after that we went casino royale while kenny went to work. and after that steph joined us at kenny's workplace for a cup of coffee.

nice weekend. but im tired. darn.

screw school.

u and i. were nv meant to be together. and now. its time for me to go. but deep in my heart. u will always stay forever in another place in another time. so walk with me and let me hold u close. and we will share this last memory..

2006-11-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

fuck cough. think its been almost a week alrdy. screwed shit.

tests are screwed. i didnt really study at all.

2006-11-01T00:40:00.000+08:00

screw projects. drowning.

im addicted to dramas, once again. and feeling emo, watching them.

pay's here. wad shld i do with it? damn tempted to switch back to a pda phone. if i do, i'll finish the bulk of it in no time. dilemma.

ponder, ponder.

2006-10-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

i had a really weird dream last night. scary shit. i haven been thinking bout her for a long long time. and yet i dreamt of her. screwed. i jus wish i could jus forget everything about her. too much memories, too much pain. can someone pls hit the del key for my brain?

fuck it.

sch has been totally b-o-r-i-n-g. i need to finish my novel and trade it with jov's. oh. we were discussing bout some random shits jus now. how much money it takes to get married, how many months of ur salary gone into it. funny.

no marriage. no relationship. wonderful. unless she's out of this world. haha. well, if she appears, great stuff. if she dun, fuck it. ;)

2006-10-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

its not like i burn bridges. i nv build them.

sch's boring, seriously. its killing me. i need a change, to pay attn in class. i need to make up for wad i lost out on. self study. cant be lazy. yeah i hope. screwed shit. im losing the determination to wake up and stay awake every morning. fuck. do something. projects/assignments are up and coming as well. boring.

oh yes. screw the haze.

2006-10-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

there must be somewhere that cigarettes burn through the night
and the leaves dont abandon their trees to the light
where the skies always clear
and the summer never ends

wont you take me there?

the leaves will fall
so will you
when you do, bury me
under them too
seconds pass; we’ll make it through

eventually we all are going home

back to sch. lessons bore the shit out of me. no joke man. creative comex pay is delayed for one whole fucking bullshit month. screwed up. and i dun think they paid us ot for the last it show. screwed. im so pissed.

one whole sem to get by. den to itp. shall ask eric if they can take us in for attachment. anw, we worked for c2o for the exhibitions. they screw up, but creative shld be fine. jus try ur luck la. if not, go back to the same old job. help yean. 9 weeks of commitment. he'll be happy. haha.

anw, i noticed that i havent been eating alot recently. fuck man. wtf is wrong with me? screwed shit. i think my meal times are screwed. boring boring sch, boring boring food there. boring boring..

2006-09-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

Singapore Polytechnic 2006/2007 S1 Examination Results

Student ID: 0519915
Name: LEOW WEI SHENG DERRICK

Module Code - Credit Unit - Grade
---------------------------------
BA0240 - 4 - A
ST2203 - 5 - B
ST2213 - 4 - B
ST2210 - 4 - B+
ST2208 - 6 - B+
BA006B - 2 - B+

SEMESTER GPA: 3.4
CUMULATIVE GPA: 3.184

result's ok. but i was really hoping for better. anw its over. jus work harder for the new sem.

i've been feeling lazy recently. dun have the feeling to work. screwed. wads wrong with me man.

driving pract test is scheduled on 19th dec. gonna mass book pract lessons soon. after i get my pay. screwed. im overspending alot. i need the moolah.

sch's gonna start soon. and im feeling empty, in my wallet++. dis is bad.

but i will overcome.

2006-09-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

im fucking tired, really. been working for the past 8 days. wake up, work, sleep. dull life. but its ok. we sold out a couple of items. sense of achievement. last night went drinking over at clifford's, along with parry and edmond. im never drinking neat bacardi again.

alcohol and ciggies are the best.

the other time, last week, went out with a couple of 4niners. was raymond's day. after 2 of em left, we drank a lil. and some crazy fucker who doesnt smoke bought lots of cigars, kinda. he spent like over 40 tops.

crazy shit.

2006-08-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

in loving memory..

2006-08-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

im having a fucking cough. i hate cough. the phelgm in the throat is fucking irritating.

tests and exams are gonna start soon. and i have still lots of assignments to be submitted. i think like 2 of them. deadlines are on test/exam dates too. screwed.

gonna work + drive during hols. target for getting license is by year end.

thinking day is a very dangerous day. wallaby talk.

repetitive dreams suck. and to the guy in control up there: congratu-fucku-lations on screwing with my mind. u've done an amazing job.

angels and airwaves.
bend and not break.
ciggarettes and alcohol.
~~you and me.~~

2006-07-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

you almost always pick the best times,
to drop the worst lines.
you almost made me cry again this time.
another false alarm,
red flashing lights,
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die.
I think I made it a game to play your game,
and let myself cry.
I buried myself alive on the inside,
so I could shut you out,
and let you go away for a long time.

I guess it's ok I puked the day away.
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way.
and if you want me back,
you're gonna have to ask,
(nicer than that).

its clear now, its over. the heart in the book actually made me thought that maybe maybe there's still something left for us, but nah i was wrong again. i dunno if u're screwing with my heart or not, but if u are, congratulations u've won big time. why the fuck am i so fucking dumb? love is blind, and i cant fucking deny that. its true, but its also time for me to open my eyes. i've been blind, one time too many. fuck it.

wgt was so screwed. we didnt play well. but i guess our map choice wasnt the best one. and i have no fucking idea why i wasnt screaming instructions around. sorry guys. but let's jus concentrate on the massive load of assignments now.

maybe its a good thing. after all, the shits are over - can fully concentrate on studies now. although putting her behind is tougher than excelling in sch, its sth i have to do. im done running around in circles.

the hardest thing.

2006-07-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

fuck wcg. wgt here we come. think we need to train more since the rules are a lil different from wad we normally do. hopefully we can get something out of it. lots of assignments to do. screwed. but sapd shld be easy, jus build on the last one. inse shld be ok too. vdg seems tough, so art like and i would not use the word artistic on myself. sct shld be ok too, jus using the software provided. its just that theres so much stuffs to be done. im gonna focus on my work, not gonna be distracted. not gonna let the not bad grades for mst go to waste.

i guess during the hols im jus gonna work a lil and den fully concentrate on driving.

well, and for now, its definitely "this isnt where i parked my car". maybe i'll meet someone where i can say "this is definitely where i parked my car". maybe maybe. i thought i had, but i was wrong.

2006-07-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

sad eyes follow me..
but i still believe theres something left for me.
so pls jus stay with me.
cos i still believe theres something left for u and me..
for u and me..
for u and me..

2006-07-05T04:03:00.000+08:00

difference between:

good night. see you tommorow.

and

good night.

i love this song: lyrics here.

lets see. tmr theres project to be done. thurs too. fri's project interview + football w/ lecturer. monday driving theory lesson. tues and wed wcg in sch. i've got lots of things to do. and im gonna do well. i fucking am.

2006-07-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

does true love exists? hmm. i dunno. ;)

2006-06-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

dunno whether shld i be happy or sad. weird. so lost. read on a mag that aries are impulsive, impatient and ambitious. no wonder im 28 march. argh.

but i know i must keep the faith,
you are the one.
tell me wads on ur mind, pls?

2006-06-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

hols are screwed. didnt really had time to work or to chill. sapd assignment was a killer. and now theres sct. i thought sct would be easier but turns out that the instructions are confusing. damn. luckily its extended. if not its the end of me.

today was a one-off soccer day. not bad. jus damn shagged. sch reopens on monday. to top it off, 1st 3 days are test days. screwed.

finally saw u today after
such a long long time. ;)

2006-06-17T13:29:00.000+08:00

ger vs crc. total goals 3. miss.
italy vs ghana. italy -1½. hit.
spain vs ukraine. spain -1½. hit.
sweden vs paraguay. sweden -1½. miss.
dream girl. miss.
success rate. bad.

im thinking of czech vs ghana. or maybe italy vs usa. might jus bang on both. shall see.

yesterday was bad. rushed sapd for a fuckin long time and thank god its more than 50% done alrdy. i've got everything planned nicely for sapd alrdy. good plan = ½ success. heh. alright. getting off to work now. shall finish up on sapd when i get back tonight.

2006-06-13T01:57:00.000+08:00

world cup's on now. football kinda cheers me up. been putting small bets, so far total $10 invested. shall control myself, dun bet too much. haven really been working. projects and assignments jus put me down.

have been listening to sad songs alot recently. hmm..

2006-06-07T17:05:00.000+08:00

jus came back frm msia. nth much. went to genting and melaka.

kinda rush thought. was working at pc show the day b4 we left sg. was doing headphones. with parry, jianzhong, kelvin, kwaihor, cheekai. and 2 other girls, gwen and felicia. nice pple. jus tiring. imagine standing for 10+ hours for 4 straight days. killing.

dis wk's e-learning wk. heard frm kelvin that there's lotsa assignments online. screwed.

2006-05-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

sch's screwed. fong sow's getting on my nerves. i swear that i could jus fuck her upside down if im in a really bad mood. thankfully i can grasp wad the module's abt, if not my ass's exposed big time. the other modules are ok. been feeling really shagged dis few days. the sleeping-in-class-habit is coming back. shit.

anw we went for an interview at sim lim on monday. kinda screwed la. jus 50/day + 1 meal daily and he expects a hell lot from us. and den today we went for creative one. 60/day + 2 meals. sell headphones/earphones wadever u wanna call it. so from 1st june to 4th june i'll be working 1000 to 2130 i think.

den after the pc show i'll be going to kl/genting/melaka i think. 4 or 5 days. not very sure. gotta check out w/ my mom. and den its work again.

i need sth different from direct sales, thats why im doing the pc show job. hopefully it'll motivate me to work harder/better. gotta help yean.

coming tuesday.

2006-05-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

my grp's becoming close w/ another grp in class. thats a good thing. hmm. we kicked ball today after sch. frm 3 to 630. crazy shit. fucking tiring. starting we were really kicking ass. our team were scoring like nobody's business. but i guess we were all pretty worn out after a game. or was it 2? i cant remember. anw, den we played with some other pple. damn shagged. but it was good exercise.
been thinking alot lately, smoking alot too.
tmr we're gonna go clementi pasar malam and wed we're playing pool together. seems we're getting along quite well. hmm.
feeling damn incomplete, thanks to jov's rantings.
sat went out w/ a couple of 4niners. was good catching up with the rest, cept jov whom ive been seeing quite often. initially there were only jov, ray and me. wenta pool at mambo. kinda off form. den andrew and steph came. wenta eat at cineleisure. den looked for benson the fatass, who's still as fat. den we went to jov's 2nd home, no not his sch, liverpool fan club. kinda outta place la. but anw jus watched the match and they won by penalties. lucky shit.
sighs. im missing her alot alot..
arsenal's gonna win the champions league!

2006-05-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

aint many fulltimers left in office. damn. hope they can do well. been busy recently. difficult to find time to work. sighs.

my maternal grandfather's going to guangzhou tmr. 2wks trip. going back to his village. crazy shit. and he's going there w/o phone no or address. hope he enjoys himself.

sun's mothers' day. gonna bring my mom out for dinner. hmm..

2006-05-07T01:07:00.000+08:00

fuck man. flu and cough's getting the better of me. fri had soccer, dead tired after dat. i slept from 5pm to 5am. no shit. today went msia for funeral. den came back. cycled. fuckin tired. tmr's maternal grandma's birthday. gotta go over for celebrations. and after that gotta bring my uncle and aunt to bugis to make specs. damn. family weekend eh?

oh anw, i saw this quote by pharell williams aka skateboard p which i thought was pretty cool.

"im good, im bad. im holy, im horny." - skateboard p(pharrell williams).

pretty neat eh? HAHAHA

2006-05-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

its been sch and out, and, sch and out, for the past few days. maybe a week alrdy. im getting bored of our sapd lecturer/tutor/bitch alrdy. but nonetheless im gonna screw her w/ my results.

hmm. i think my great grandmother passed away. i dunno. my grandma told me in chinese that she's my 婆太, and i have no idea how to translate it into english. i'll need to go back to msia this weekend, so i doubt i can work. hope company's doing fine.

anw i was browsing thru my favourite wikipedia when i saw this quote. i love it when i watched the movie alrdy, like 4 or 5 times, i think. the movie's titled a chinese odyssey II - cinderella. dunno wads with cinderalla . but anw, here's the quote: "曾經有一份至真嘅愛情放在我面前，我冇珍惜，等到失去嘅時候先後悔莫及，人世間最痛苦的事莫過於此，如果個天可以比多次機會我嘅話，我會對嗰個女孩子說三個字：我愛妳。如果一定要係依份愛上加一個期限，我希望是一萬年！" here's the translated one: (There once was a true love presented before me; I didn't cherish it. Only upon losing that love did I feel great remorse. The worst pain in life is no more than this. If fate can grant me a second chance, I will say three words to her: "I love you." If there must be a time limit, I wish... ... 10,000 years!),

2006-04-21T03:31:00.000+08:00

//heartbeats at busstop.
sch was boring. today was a long day. lotsa breaks. we even went fc1 to eat. the chicken rice totally sucks. way off fc6's standard. wasted time n energy walking there to eat. oh ya. textbooks are expensive man. 150 i think. and most of them are thick. no shit.
//for the 1st time, felt sth like dis.
sth happened in the office. sth not good. met sticker yesterday w/ alex. all of us had no idea on wad to do. can only hope that things will not be as bad as it can be.
//con-fucking-firm.
anw, yesterday went zouk for the click five w/ jov. overall it was not bad.
//couple face.

coffeebean@scotts.
=D

2006-04-13T00:36:00.000+08:00

last thurs went kbox w/ classmates. sang frm 6pm to 3am. crazy shit. den i wanted to go to a kopitiam lim kopi and watch soccer. walked round the whole jurong central and no fucking kopitiam was opened. so we ended up slacking at mac. almost died of boredom, but we ended up talking cock and time flew.

fri went to waiting bar at clarke quay. bdaes celebration. alfred was kinda eccentric, kept asking me to drink. but when midnight came, yean was dead. we toasted to him one after another. i wonder if he was caught for drunk driving. lol. anw waiting bar's kinda nice.

today was out w/ classmates again. pooled w/ kelvin n jz at west coast rc. den wx came and we headed to bugis. walked arnd, shopped and window shopped. even went sim lim to give some advice to kelvin's new com. den we ended up at marina sq.

kinda tired. met jov for supper yesterday. managed to sleep at only 6am. but woke up at 9am to meet the guys today.

im so fucking addicted to a cheena oldie, ai ru chao shui. by jeff chang. but i prefer andy lau's rendition of it. hmm, here's the link u wan the song: jeff/andy.

indochine.
cant wait. =D

2006-04-06T12:12:00.000+08:00

dis few days have been boring. work's not fantastic. and also the bad weather. fuck the rain. jus woke up. dreamt of sth jus now. how nice if it could turn to reality. heh.

i'd give it all,
i'd give for us.
give anything,
but I won't give up.

2006-03-31T04:07:00.000+08:00

no shit. the wicked is addictive. hahaha. anw, for the good pple who have no idea wad it is. here's the link: http://weikiat.ikueb.com/thewicked/. im stucked at level 36 now. help, anyone? please? anw, enjoy the game!

2006-03-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

early sunsets over monroeville.

2006-03-22T12:20:00.000+08:00

this is results. not very good la. but considering the effort i put it, shld be considered as not bad already. LOL. i expected myself to do well for java and well, i did. i thought i'll screw maths though. thought i'll do better for database maybe a B? and i thought i'll get a C for MOB. but nah. fuck it. thoughts and reality. lol. ok so one burden's off my mind now. sweeeeeeeeettt.

MODULE CODE	MODULE	CREDIT UNITS	GRADE
ST2102	JAVA PROGRAMMING	6	A
SP0902	INNOVATION, DESIGN & ENTERPRISE IN ACTION	2	B
MS0105	MATHEMATICS	4	B+
ET004S	SMALL OFFICE HOME OFFICE COMPUTER NETWORKS	2	B+
ST0114	DATABASE MANAGEMENT SYSTEMS	5	C+
BA0151	MANAGEMENT & ORGANISATIONAL BEHAVIOUR	6	D+

Semester GPA:	2.9
Cumulative GPA:	3.078

i dun believe that anybody..
feels the way i do..
about you know...

2006-03-13T02:44:00.000+08:00

pardon the pics. im too lazy to crop away the quicktime player. lol. its a nice song, nice vid too. nice words. encouraging. hahaha. anw, my results will be out on the 22nd. cant wait. hope i do as well as i did last sem, or better. i miss my classmates man. gonna separate alrdy. different options in 2nd yr. hopefully i'll be in the class with my current classmates who chose the ebt option. sure am gonna miss being in the same class. all the crapping, gaming, soccer, pool, verbal attacks on each another, hokkien, etc etc.

check dis out. an online music station i've created. enjoy! click here!

imissher.

2006-03-09T03:03:00.000+08:00

feels good to be working again. went the one at meritus mandarin on mon. not bad. karen, alex and i were singing older pop songs from westlife, bsb, s club, etc. lol. funny shit. and now karen has no voice. poor thing. and stupid alex is off for god knows when. holiday still take off. knn. anw, dunno wad happened to norris n sofian. feels kinda distanced. they made yean really disappointed + angry. damn.

sales is alright now i guess. have 5 to date. 5 sales closer to the kl trip. company's trip is to kl and genting. all expenses paid. gonna get 26 this mth to go for the trip. nice. family's kl trip is postponed to next mth. 1 day after company's trip. hopefully i get to go for both. den i'll be sick with kl alrdy i guess. haha.

everything else's pretty alright now.

her. still.

2006-02-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

was trying to sell my phone on ebay singapore. happily the highest bid was 502.50 which is fucking high for my under-rated phone. turned out tt guy's a nigerian scammer. fucking waste my time. so i jus sold it for 430 quickly and got myself an o2 xda IIs. damn fucking shiok, esp the keyboard. hahaha. to hell with nigerian scammers. tmr's my last paper. gonna work after that. raring to go, again. hahaha. gotta fix yean's com. fucking spywares. dunno if my classmates are still going kbox tmr. we'll see. i needa get something frm sim lim too. hope i have the time..

2006-02-21T22:04:00.000+08:00

fuck math. i think its screwed. hahaha. jus came back from dinner with classmates. they wanna go kbox like on fri or next wk on our last paper. gonna have problems singing chinese songs man. haa. anw probably have to go back to the office to help yean with his com. spyware shits. cant wait to get back to work. and the kl trip.

2006-02-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

YOU AND I WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE TOGETHER.
AND NOW IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GO.
BUT, DEEP IN MY HEART YOU WILL ALWAYS STAY FOREVER.
IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME.

SO, WALK WITH ME AND LET ME HOLD YOU CLOSE.
AND WE WILL SHARE THIS LAST MEMORY.
AND DREAM ABOUT OUR LOVE AND WHAT IT MEANS.
TO LOVE SOMEONE ENOUGH TO SET THEM FREE.

IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME.
IN THE SPACE BETWEEN ANY REASON OR RHYME.
SOMEDAY WE'LL HAVE IT ALL AND OUR LOVE WILL SHINE.
IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME.

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE ONE ON MY MIND.
IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME.
IN ANOTHER PLACE; IN ANOTHER TIME.

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2006-02-12T01:52:00.000+08:00

exam's round the corner. next week's study week. this is the plan:

mon: go back to sch for DBMS, soccer, submit java.
tues: fuck IDEAS. gonna study for my SOHOCN.
wed: sit for SOHOCN paper. target time: 30mins.
thurs: study!
fri: study hard!
sat: study harder!
sun: study harder harder!

no shit. i havent been working as hard as last sem. i need to buck up. or else im gonna fall short of my last sem's results.

jus caught the gunners' match. managed to grab a point back despite pushing hard. king henry almost took all 3pts home. well, sometimes luck's a factor.

the used are addictive. i caught fire. all that i've got (the vid!). the taste of ink. bulimic!!

2006-02-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

some things are jus never meant to be.
its really no point forcing things.

pool was good today. was really on fire. but the almost 4 hrs of pooling was really tiring. couldnt concentrate properly in the end. tmr's soccer. really looking forward to it.

i dun wan us to be suffering again.
its jus too too too difficult. dun u see?

2006-01-21T10:14:00.000+08:00

if u could see
these tears im crying
touch these hands
that cant stop shaking
heal my heart
thats heavily bleeding

2006-01-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

she's always on my mind,
from the time i wake up
'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on

so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine

so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

why i live in despair
'cause wide awake or dreaming
i know she's never there
and all these time i act so brave
i'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me so...

maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

heaven knows..

nice song. i jus love it. rick price's heaven knows. had a hard time looking for it. actually though of buying it from aol music. but anw i found it at last. thank god. i heard it from the show split second. its a hk drama. if only it was in canto instead of the dubbed mandarin. but anw nice show. gonna end soon. gonna cancel my vv drama soon. i left it there so i could watch the show. hahaha. anw the song is great but it doesnt really suits me. if u know wad i mean. heh

2006-01-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

review of 2005.

working in the sales line really taught been alot alot alot of stuffs that are not found in books. i guess this job really got me going and i've grown so much. i need to thank the people at msh. esp yean and dhiraj(although i dunno where the fuck are u now. haha). and the current people at channel hub. yean again. richard. jasmine and angeline. thanks so much. i really enjoyed working with all of u all. let's strive and go for the sky! and many thanks to my pals such as, norris, sofian, alex(titties), alfred, chan, karen, giles for all the great times together.

sch's alright. although timetable is a little fucked up. 1st sem was fantastic. i duno how my 2nd sem will fare. but i think my results wont be as good. gotta buck up. i'll try. although some modules, such as math, is literally killing me. we'll see. many thanks to my classmates as well.

events.

fri was alright. worked for half a day. was really tired. went back to the office. but yean told me that we were far from out 500. was feeling damn.. sad? we went for a break later. went addicted to drink. had a couple of beer. but i left early.

sat was great. though the rain was annoying. and i was feeling damn sleepy. pizza dinner was ok, though we couldnt finish it. haha. movie was good. how i wish days like dat can be more frequent.

sun was work. went little india to canvass. went up together with charmaine. i had 2 and she had 1. damn shiok. went down to meet the rest. only to be caught in the sea of indians/blangadeshis? damn crowded. and it was raining. didnt know wad to eat. so i suggested we go up one of the blocks and jus ordered pizza by using 1 of the unit number and sitting outside it. and they said ok. damn. sounds stupid huh. haha.

jus now went to submit invoice to office. settled my customer's case. met the guys for a while and came back. damn tired. and theres sch tmr. 9-5. feels like office work. wad a way to kickstart the season. haha.

2005-12-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday wasnt such a fantastic day. maybe it was worse than the holocaust. maybe. maybe. thanks so much norris and tiffany for ur listening ears. i dunno how to thank u all, and for cheering me up yesterday and today. well, i hope everything will be alright. hopefully, really.

2005-12-11T01:19:00.000+08:00

woke up with lotsa missed calls. customer flooded my phone like mad. damn pissed with the installer, raymond. fucking asshole. 1st arranged to go to to cust's place early at 8+ den changed to 11+. ok nvm. and den late somemore. agreed on 11+ and he arrived an hour later. fucking bastard. den dunno wad fuck he told my customer also, say how i signed them up was noit a normal procedure.. blah blah blah. fuck off la. we're giving u a job to help us do installation. if u cant keep to the fucking timeslots allocated and cant have good things coming outta ur fucking mouth den pls fucking not take the job. its not like as if we cant schedule an scv installer to do it for us..

ass. ended up with me entertaining that stupid son of my customer. complaining abt dis n dat. den he even asked why i didnt go to his place today. fuck u. if i hav to be at all my customer's place during their installation. wont i be fucking busy? dunno anything at all and jus couldnt help but shoot nonsense out of his mouth. and he even made noise abt the channels, like why i didnt give him the cartoons. fuck la. ur dad chose the channel rite? is it my fault that he didnt get cartoons for u? and hello? u're 17 alrdy. but jus becos of some fucking cartoons u wanna argue. ass. dare to fucking make so much noise but dun even dare to say out ur name n age. jackson ang, u better not fucking call me again for no fucking reason or i'll fucking fuck u upside down.

ok im done venting out my frustration. i feel so much better. and thinking bout the last few days made me feel better too. haha. gonna go over to yean's place the upcoming week to help him install his wireless network. gonna go after his pool table arrive. damn shiok. go there fix the thing for 5min and play pool for hours? hahaha. gonna bring my cue there. hand damn fucking itchy, i mean it - havent really pool-ed for ages.

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2005-11-30T08:31:00.000+08:00

i hate rain. home alone till sat. cept that my grandpa's with me sometimes. so not really alone anw. the troublesome thing is that i have to walk my dog. n she can take forever to take a leak or to shit. stubborn too. must walk the route that she wans to. u cant lead her, she'll jus stand still and resist ur pull. gotta wake up early every day jus to bring her down. n come back early too. irritating. cant work for this whole week. probably only on fri n sat. gotta study for mon's mob test on sun. hmm.. gotta rush off to sch alrdy. =D

2005-11-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

"harlow!!"(sticker tone) hahaha..

sch's boring. been getting many calls during sch hours. but none of them are calling to tell me they wanna sign up. basket. nvm. i'll dig out customers myself. almost every module is boring. killing me. havent been to my gems at all. took networking. shld be a breeze. passing is no problem, but scoring is. gonna try hard to maintain my gpa i guess.

work's good. quite. havent been doing well consistently. i wanna get my consistency back. den the quantity. mon and tues are my off days. but gonna be damn busy too. sch ends late on both days. haha. nvm. i need to take a break frm work anw, aint no ironman afterall.

deilighted. so many, maybe even much, wonderful things happening arnd me. keep it going man. sch, work, play. trying to find the balance.

2005-11-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

basket. wad a time to be sick. esp the sore throat. cant even speak properly. sometimes voice is here, sometimes its not. i hope its gonna be alrite alrdy. wasted too many days alrdy. i wanna work, i need to work; im so damn broke. sch started alrdy. den again, wad a stupid wk. mon sch, tues ph, wed sch, thurs ph, fri sch again. its like wtf? might as well give us another wk of break.

ok sch ends at 3 tmr. actually it ends at 12. but i've got gems till 3. gotta rush to the office for meeting by 4. oh alfred n giles are in the subaru challenge. hope they get in. giles u better win the car, we'll go cruising at changi again. hahaha. cefiro not shiok enough. get the imprezza, mod and we'll fly!

but anw, timetable's kinda ok. fris end at 12. rest/hangout and i can work alrdy. cool shit. gonna go take my cough medicine and feel high again..

2005-10-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

bangkok was good. 1st day i brought my family to a temple on foot. scary. thanks for geog, map reading was easy. hahahah. but anw. it was purely shopping la. so there nth much to be said. ya.. but anw. checked my results there at an internet cafe. this is how it goes..

fom c+
acc b
crs b+
wcd b+
cd b+
itos b+
uwos a

gpa 3.25

guess its not bad la huh. but fuck studies 1st. gonna concentrate on work now. 15 sales to the end of the mth. i can do it.

2005-10-10T01:47:00.000+08:00

today was good. went office early in the morning. supposed to meet norris. but he was late. damn. so i went alone, and i was the 1st. so i walked to 7-11 to get a drink. den saw dzul on the way back, talked to him a lil, he havent changed much - havent really wake up. sighs. den some of the guys came. finally richard came with the keys. and yean came shortly after. den giles and me accompanied richard to get drinks. bought 6 bots of soft drinks, a sparkling juice and 24 pack of anchor beer - it was damn cheap, $46 only. went back and slacked around. den all the rest came. had lotsa food. roast pig, duck, chicken, to name a few. den finished it with a beer and i left for orchard.

there was only jovial and steph. den andrew came. wenta play pool. form was sucky initially, den i was on fire - shiok! and benson and jiemin joined us soon after. pooled for quite a while, den we went taka as jiemin wanted to return books. walked around and went paragon for a little. den went swensen's to eat. damn i'm so broke. but it was a good meal. went caesars after dinner.

finished eunice's vodka. hahaha. thanks! anw yean said its ok to finish it, he'll get another bot if needed. we finished it in a short time la. so we bought another 2 bots. chivas and black label. had chivas. black label's still there. fantastic. anw jovial vomitted, LOL. and jiemin couldnt stop drinking. so i sent her back, as the rest were rushing to catch a show on the tv. she was pretty drunk, or tipsy if u insist. cant walk properly and her thoughts were heavy. kinda bad la. hope's shes alrite. anw, look forward to the next session with u guys again.

gonna start work soon, finally. almost everything's settled. woohoo. im raring to go, i need $$ real bad. lol. shall work hard to pay off debts and for my shopping list. c'mon!